ahh, hello. i’ve been avoiding this.
i realize my hiatus is about over, but i still don’t know what to do with this account. after my partner of almost two years deleted, i… yeah. i don’t know what i’m going to do. this account was centered and developed based around that relationship. nightwing came along because of it, he was married, he had a child, they were becoming part of the league… and all of that development came from my old amazing partner. and i’m absolutely depressed that it’s over.
i can’t reboot this account. i could never, ever in a million years, erase what this account was built on.
and with roy gone, dick would be too depressed to ever want to speak to anyone. and how disrespectful of me would it be to just erase what me and melissa did and start over.? god, i hate that. this account is all that’s left of the memories and good times we had. her account is gone, i don’t want to lose everything. i can’t bear to lose this. i know that the last few months on this account hurt me emotionally and mentally, but i can’t bring myself to rid myself of it. i know the amazing times and people i met through it. i want this here for myself. i want to be able to read everything again, whether i start crying again like i am now or not. haha. what a fucking freak i am, letting myself hold onto this. but these memories… god, this account was my life. everything i wrote, the fun times i had, it’s here. almost two years of it too.
so it actually pains me to think that it’s dead. that all of this, all of the people i met— i’m nowhere near them anymore. i don’t like thinking about it, but what can you do.? i might come on every so often to say hi ooc, but i don’t know about if i’ll ever roleplay dick grayson again. i don’t know if i can bring myself to. i don’t want to go into the ooc details— but that’s why i can’t. all my old rp blogs are going to be deleted soon too, since i abandoned them months and months ago to keep this one my only one. so now i’m on my personal, which if you need it i posted it about three or four posts back. i’m there, yeah.
i just wanted to say thank you to everyone. melissa, if you see this, thank you. thank you for giving me so many good times. albany, kristen, marie, gavin, melissa, emma, b, thank you guys. i know i missed some people, but you guys were always there for dick to bug and have fun with. i’ll be here maybe once every so often— but my personal is where i’ll be from now on. thank you, thank you a lot for everything. i can’t say this account is dead, but i can’t call it alive either. bear with me, please. but thank you, everyone. see you on the flipside, maybe.?
— bee.
